2011♥ ..sike .

AHHHH ! I haven't blogged in like 15years ! Lol ..I've been trying to do the most I can before all my friends go back for school ! I'm sorryy coughcoughTIFFANYcough*. 

Sooo ..A situation has arised ..that I'm not really too happy about . At all .

So, I met this guy ..again kinda, & we were just talkin' like its all cool (on twitter btw - follow me! @frenchyren ) for like ..3-4hrs . Just hittin' it off ..he's cool & he's funny, blah but I just met him . Then wayy later my friend texts me like, don't talk to him . My friend & him are SOO super close & my friend & I had this thing going on for a while . So I ask why, & its cause my friend doesn't want me talking to people they know . Wow ..okay . I've known my friend longer, so I just guess I have to stop .

But why ? We're no longer involved ...why does this HAVE to happen to me though? I mean ..clearly w| this new guy it hasn't gone anywhere, but good conversation is good conversation ! & Now it comes to a caput all outta respect for my friend .

Whenever I get interested in someone, I get tttrreated . Now, I'm like listening to Kid Cudi on super repeat . I guess I'm NOT meant to be with anyone . /:

xoxoFrenchy

Confession Session .

They say the best way to come to terms with your issues, is to first admit them ..soo here we go .

Hi, my name is Ren, & I'm a Masochist .

Masochist, a lot of people have NO idea what this word means ..so I'll define it for you .

Derived from the term:

mas·och·ism 

–noun

1.

Psychiatry . the condition in which sexual gratification depends on suffering, physical pain, and humiliation.

2.

gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification.

3.

the act of turning one's destructive tendencies inward or upon oneself.

4.

the tendency to find pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc.

 

So I'm guessing you're like "Omg, Noo French you can't be serious ! " ..Yea ..I'm very serious .

No one knows ..until now lol . Even though I'm single, this is STILL the case in relationships . That's why I'm sooo combative with men I guess ..I pick fights SOOO easily ..intentionally ..i just ..ugh love arguing & fighting . It makes me feel so good .

Idk why ..& I guess it's pretty demented that it's that way, but people are how they are .

 

I'm doing my best to change that, It's hard though ..this is prob more the reason why I'm single . I don't want anyone else like that again, I've had my heart broken once ..& I don't want those old habits to rub off on anyone that I care about I guess .

I still love that guy, despite the heartbreak & abusive words ..I didn't end it w| him because of that ..I did because he cheated . It wasn't our relationship without all the heated arguments and desputes ..& we'd make up to break up 3298428429x a week, for 11 months straight ..

 

So if you know anyone in this kinda situation, it's harder to get out of than just "Break it off!" ..atleast for people like me ..

I just let my jealousy/pride break us up ..thank God for that ..anyways ..this is getting hard to write/think about ..so I'm gunna end it now . 

 

xoxoFrenchy 

Weaves & Love ♥ .

SO ! I've had short hair for ..I believe 9months out of this year - Yayme ! So I am NOTTT one of those girls who has short hair for 3months gets a weave & tries to grow it out . NO . I got a weave because it is TOOOOO cold in Chicago to have short hair like that -___- & I need to regrow my front so I can have my mohawk back in the spring ! These were my stages of short hair ..

1. was this weird ..idk . Almost mohawk thing ...lol like Rihanna's from Take a Bow .

2. Was my ACTUAL mohawk ..My favorite one & what I will be converting BACK to this Spring <3

3. Justin Bieber Bowllll ! Lol ..this was I think looked the best on me, you don't see alot of girls w| a bowl cut you know ?

4. My "Clark Kent" look lol ..my bowl grew ! O: -haha ..Sooo i just kinda swept it back & got this bouffant look ..dope right XP . Alot of people loved it ! Which I was soooo surprised about ! My forehead looks M A S S I V E E E .
....#blankstare
Now! I got a weave like ..2days ago & I SOOOO forgot what having long hair was even LIKE haha . Weaves are OKAY as long as they're done RIGHT ..my mom is a hairstylist & she did mine . I HATE Remy hair ..why ? Because it's NOT a realistic black texture to be honest ..my hair is not & will never be that silky ..because i have BLACK (not the color- the texture) semi-thick hair ..Sorry girls ..downgrade to Milkyway haha ..its cheaper & its GOOD hair . Remy is just a name ..just as good as Milkyway & more real looking ..i dont wanna see ur coarse hair on top of the super silky magical hair !


#Anywhoo ..The girls @ my job didn't even recognize me ! I guess I look way different w| long hair ? haha ..welppp --#drumrollpleasee ..TADAAA !

#blingblowWOW . haha ..its not a good pic, I just thought it was cool haha ..here's a BETTER one . : )

I wanted it rediculously long ..but that's ghetto lol . All my girls love it <3 & I'm happy haha ..


..Speaking of love .


People have been all DOWN my throat about relationships & junk . And I know for a fact that there's a few guys that I guess are interested/crushing on me, not being concieted ! It's just the truth - I've been told . They're sooo cool, but I'm just not interested . Not just in them ! But in anyone ..idk why . I mean they're good options I guess, they're actually DOING something w| their lives .actively engaged in things & have contacts that I don't have ..but all I see them as is first potential business partners & SECONDLY as friends .


Is that so bad that I'm more concerned for my career ? Honestly ..& I'm not like flirting w| them or leading them on ! I'm just being ..Ren /: ..quirky & determined ..& dramatic . I have my whole LIFE to be married ..I don't want casual relationships ..I just wanna be freakin married so I only have to deal with ONE man & ONE set of emotions other than mine . Takes too long to learn people ..


In my 5year plan I don't even see marriage or a relationship ..all I can see is ..well my business . Idek if I'll have/want any friends ! I just wanna fulfill my purpose God set me w| I guess ...
Plus I don't want to break anymore hearts ..because I know I have ..& intentionally..as much as it hurts to admit ..


What is sooo great about this love/relationship hype ? What's so hard about being single ? Or UN-interested ..? #seriously


xoxoFrenchy

OMG! Shoes. o__O

SO ..within the past 2weeks, I've gotten 3 pairs of shoes .

Safe to say, this job is ruining my life by supporting my habit ..#Yipes . 

I SHOULD be saving for my move to Cali & for the rest of the semester & this whack garbage school #SAIC . ANYWAYSS ! The three pair of shoes I got areee ..

*black combat boots 

*black ORIGINAL Moon Boots

* Nude semi-booties ..? lol if that's what you wanna call em . (i'll post pics later ..forreal this time ! lol)

& I asked for some wedges for Christmas ..hopefully I get them b|c my momma was T-R-I-P-P-I-N' the other day -___- ..whatever, I`ll just buy em myself lol . #shesfunny . -___- sike ..

ANYWAYS . If there are 3 pair of shoes I believe are a MUST have for a more ..i guess dynamic wardrobe its ..

Combat/Workman Boot

These are studded, I don't personally own studded ones ..yet. But any pair are fine ! If you're really dope you'll go cop you some Doc Martens & be classic . I'll be grabbing a pair soon ..floral for the spring ..#chea. but I have a problem lol ..soo don't follow my example ! #AVOID taller than calf height boots, then you can't wear them in the spring really without looking like a poorly dressed art student . (i can talk because I AM an art student ! - soo dont chew me up!)

Black Wedge Booties

Wedges can be dressed up or down & are SUPERRR comfy for those of us that don't want to & don't wear heels out all the time, and a classic ..although they are pretty trendy right now. #nuffsaid

A pair of Strappy heels.

Not the ghetto skinny prostitute straps, they need to be substantially ...well thick .

Throw on a pair of black socks for the winter, colored socks for Spring & none for Summer .

Make your clothes SEASONAL ..don't always go buyin' a bunch of new stuff all the time you know ?

#ishouldntbetalking , but I'm revamping my wardrobe so I have a reason : ) ..kinda lol

All my shoes tend to have platforms ..because they are a MUST . I'm already 5'10 & skinny ...so they just make me like 6'3 & SUPER lanky ...but idc ! Who doesn't like to look long ? haha . anywhoo ..

I'm done rambling here ..lol HOPEFULLY you guys found some help in this .

xoxoFrenchy

followmeee: @frenchyren

I'm Baaaa-aackkk ! >:)

Neighbors, Friends, Countrymen, Lend me your eyes ..

Yes Yes, I totes quoted Shakespear ^__^ NOW ..this blog-post I GUESS is semi-serious .

RECENTLY, I've been kinda troubled with this notion that I'm not a "nice" person . The girls at my job are convinced of it, & it makes me sad that they feel that way ..even though it's kinda true . I mean I'm not mean or anything don't get me wrong ! I'm just not "nice" . I'm real, I'm blunt, & I'm straightforward . Not to come out w| the "all my life I been trampled on"-sob story . YET I was nice for a LONG time & people just didn't appreciate it ..now when I'm like nice nice, it makes me SO uncomfortable ..& when people try to figure me out . 

I wish it was possible to exist in this world alone & just be able to be 100% independent ..b|c that's the kind of person I've become ...but I can't ..so I gotta change . It's a hard process man ..I really try ..& I feel so vulnerable just saying nice things, in a nice way . I always say nice things like "Aye, bro I got it ..don't worry about it" instead of, "Hey, why don't you let me help you with that" ...nice . I can be SO manish in the way I do things sometimes ..as much of a DRAMAqueen that I am ..#BLAHHHHHH ..it sucks .

I'm just not the flambuoyantly nice type ..I do things kinda lowkey ..I'm a very chill person . I don't like bein all up in ur face ...idk . Maybe I don't even know what kinda person I am ..I'm pretty sure all I'm doing now is existing ..not living & thats gotta change . I just need a little help you know ? Someone please ...#helpme .

Holy Freakin CRAP !

Omfggg !!!! 

!. Guys ...I need to slit my wrist ..vertically . 

I'm SOOOOOO behind in freakin' updating . These Final projects are TAKING OVER MY LIFE !! #gahh . #staleface. 

I'm soo super sorry; as of Friday . I PROMISE I will post ALL the freakin' time 

No wonder not many people are following my blog lmfao . How EMBARASSING .

I'll keep you updatedd & post my projects so u can tell me abt it ^__^

XoxoFrenchyy

<3 you guys ! Follow my Twitterr .

@frenchyren

Winter Fash-Uhnn ♥

I figuredd since I've done lets say ..NO posts fashion related ..I'd start with a VITAL one .
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT -
Winter Fashion Does NOT Consist of :
A. Northface Fleece
B. Leggings
C. UGG Boots

 

THIS IS NOT STYLE .

GIVE IT UP, I CAN DRESS YOU BETTER WITH $15 AND A THRIFT STORE.

This years Winter's fashion scene is SOOOO widespread you can fit all kinds of things into it . From minimalist to complete, & utter garish..-ness. LAYERING- key word this winter ! Layers upon layers of clothes. Knitwear and thermals, fur accents & leggings just a few of SOOOO many trends this season . One thing you deff can't forget is to buy a fabulous holiday dress ! I recommend H&M they have awesome dresses, SOME for like ..50% off its dope af . Go shopping in your mom/grandma/dad/brother/grandpa's closets ! I'm sure you`ll find awesome things !

Here's a few inspiration ideas ^__^

Now ! For me ...i have a few of my favoriteee trends, you may not like them but ..WHATEVS, its my blog anywho lol ..i hope you do ! ^__^

Thermals Thermals Thermals ! Especially Long Johns as Pants ! They're the new legging of the season ! I saw this picture of this chick in long johns & I fell in love with her ..not her pants, HER . She's so dope for that & I've officially been inspired ! I gotta find some1 that'll deal w| my camera whoreish ways so I can get photos of ME for you guys ^__^ lol . #imnohypocrite ..I think my style is pretty decent . ANYWAYS .

I'm also in love with FURRRR!*gucci mane voice* ..it just gives whatever your outfit is, a warm touch ^__^ #burr! Its superr stylish to have SMALL fur pieces though, don't go get minked out ! Especially not if you can't afford it, I'm all for a nice fur coat ! I just dont have the ca$h for one ..WOMP -___- .

Be like Yeezy & Amber Rose ! BUT it's good to try a fur hat, bag, scarf or even a foxtail for your purse or something ! So far I have a all fur trapper hat, a rabbit fur sac bag thingy(I have yet to find one ]: WOMPPP- if you got the hookup let a sista know ! hehe)

INFINITY SCARVESS ! AHHHHh !

I love them ! They're the scarves that are kind of ...ovular ..if that's even a word ha . You can wear them SOO many cute ways & that chunky knit makes anyone look cute ! On top of that anyone can make an infinity scarf . Maybe I'll do a few DIY's on this chizz ..cause Lord knows I hate paying $$ to do something myself ..but better : )

Winter Styling Tips-Make your summer Wardrobe work for you !:

-Layer Sweaters w| Maxi Dresses & cool boots !

 A cropped sweater gives your summery dress a super cool grundge lolita type of look .

-Lace It Up !

Wear your summer tanks & bandeaus underneath a neutral color lace top/vest/jacket

-Sock-it To-Me !

Got cool oxfords ? Platform open toe shoes ? Shorts ? Dresses ?

Make it seasonal w| a pair of super-dope socks ! Bright, lacy anklets or knit,sheer knee/thigh-highs !

-Leggings Galoree !

Make your leggings a subtly fabulous part of your outfit by wearing them underneath your favorite sweater, flannel, ripped jeans, dresses, shorts or whatever ! Leggings are super hot this season sooo MAKE IT WORK GIRL !

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That's enough for noww . Just a few things to run by you ! ^__^

Be Cute AND Warm this Winter; I know I will !

Because Chicago is #tearingmeup .

XoxoFrenchyy

(followme - @frenchyren)