I'm Baaaa-aackkk ! >:)

Neighbors, Friends, Countrymen, Lend me your eyes ..

Yes Yes, I totes quoted Shakespear ^__^ NOW ..this blog-post I GUESS is semi-serious .

RECENTLY, I've been kinda troubled with this notion that I'm not a "nice" person . The girls at my job are convinced of it, & it makes me sad that they feel that way ..even though it's kinda true . I mean I'm not mean or anything don't get me wrong ! I'm just not "nice" . I'm real, I'm blunt, & I'm straightforward . Not to come out w| the "all my life I been trampled on"-sob story . YET I was nice for a LONG time & people just didn't appreciate it ..now when I'm like nice nice, it makes me SO uncomfortable ..& when people try to figure me out . 

I wish it was possible to exist in this world alone & just be able to be 100% independent ..b|c that's the kind of person I've become ...but I can't ..so I gotta change . It's a hard process man ..I really try ..& I feel so vulnerable just saying nice things, in a nice way . I always say nice things like "Aye, bro I got it ..don't worry about it" instead of, "Hey, why don't you let me help you with that" ...nice . I can be SO manish in the way I do things sometimes ..as much of a DRAMAqueen that I am ..#BLAHHHHHH ..it sucks .

I'm just not the flambuoyantly nice type ..I do things kinda lowkey ..I'm a very chill person . I don't like bein all up in ur face ...idk . Maybe I don't even know what kinda person I am ..I'm pretty sure all I'm doing now is existing ..not living & thats gotta change . I just need a little help you know ? Someone please ...#helpme .