Confession Session .

They say the best way to come to terms with your issues, is to first admit them ..soo here we go .

Hi, my name is Ren, & I'm a Masochist .

Masochist, a lot of people have NO idea what this word means ..so I'll define it for you .

Derived from the term:

mas·och·ism 

–noun

1.

Psychiatry . the condition in which sexual gratification depends on suffering, physical pain, and humiliation.

2.

gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification.

3.

the act of turning one's destructive tendencies inward or upon oneself.

4.

the tendency to find pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc.

 

So I'm guessing you're like "Omg, Noo French you can't be serious ! " ..Yea ..I'm very serious .

No one knows ..until now lol . Even though I'm single, this is STILL the case in relationships . That's why I'm sooo combative with men I guess ..I pick fights SOOO easily ..intentionally ..i just ..ugh love arguing & fighting . It makes me feel so good .

Idk why ..& I guess it's pretty demented that it's that way, but people are how they are .

 

I'm doing my best to change that, It's hard though ..this is prob more the reason why I'm single . I don't want anyone else like that again, I've had my heart broken once ..& I don't want those old habits to rub off on anyone that I care about I guess .

I still love that guy, despite the heartbreak & abusive words ..I didn't end it w| him because of that ..I did because he cheated . It wasn't our relationship without all the heated arguments and desputes ..& we'd make up to break up 3298428429x a week, for 11 months straight ..

 

So if you know anyone in this kinda situation, it's harder to get out of than just "Break it off!" ..atleast for people like me ..

I just let my jealousy/pride break us up ..thank God for that ..anyways ..this is getting hard to write/think about ..so I'm gunna end it now . 

 

xoxoFrenchy 

Weaves & Love ♥ .

SO ! I've had short hair for ..I believe 9months out of this year - Yayme ! So I am NOTTT one of those girls who has short hair for 3months gets a weave & tries to grow it out . NO . I got a weave because it is TOOOOO cold in Chicago to have short hair like that -___- & I need to regrow my front so I can have my mohawk back in the spring ! These were my stages of short hair ..

1. was this weird ..idk . Almost mohawk thing ...lol like Rihanna's from Take a Bow .

2. Was my ACTUAL mohawk ..My favorite one & what I will be converting BACK to this Spring <3

3. Justin Bieber Bowllll ! Lol ..this was I think looked the best on me, you don't see alot of girls w| a bowl cut you know ?

4. My "Clark Kent" look lol ..my bowl grew ! O: -haha ..Sooo i just kinda swept it back & got this bouffant look ..dope right XP . Alot of people loved it ! Which I was soooo surprised about ! My forehead looks M A S S I V E E E .
....#blankstare
Now! I got a weave like ..2days ago & I SOOOO forgot what having long hair was even LIKE haha . Weaves are OKAY as long as they're done RIGHT ..my mom is a hairstylist & she did mine . I HATE Remy hair ..why ? Because it's NOT a realistic black texture to be honest ..my hair is not & will never be that silky ..because i have BLACK (not the color- the texture) semi-thick hair ..Sorry girls ..downgrade to Milkyway haha ..its cheaper & its GOOD hair . Remy is just a name ..just as good as Milkyway & more real looking ..i dont wanna see ur coarse hair on top of the super silky magical hair !


#Anywhoo ..The girls @ my job didn't even recognize me ! I guess I look way different w| long hair ? haha ..welppp --#drumrollpleasee ..TADAAA !

#blingblowWOW . haha ..its not a good pic, I just thought it was cool haha ..here's a BETTER one . : )

I wanted it rediculously long ..but that's ghetto lol . All my girls love it <3 & I'm happy haha ..


..Speaking of love .


People have been all DOWN my throat about relationships & junk . And I know for a fact that there's a few guys that I guess are interested/crushing on me, not being concieted ! It's just the truth - I've been told . They're sooo cool, but I'm just not interested . Not just in them ! But in anyone ..idk why . I mean they're good options I guess, they're actually DOING something w| their lives .actively engaged in things & have contacts that I don't have ..but all I see them as is first potential business partners & SECONDLY as friends .


Is that so bad that I'm more concerned for my career ? Honestly ..& I'm not like flirting w| them or leading them on ! I'm just being ..Ren /: ..quirky & determined ..& dramatic . I have my whole LIFE to be married ..I don't want casual relationships ..I just wanna be freakin married so I only have to deal with ONE man & ONE set of emotions other than mine . Takes too long to learn people ..


In my 5year plan I don't even see marriage or a relationship ..all I can see is ..well my business . Idek if I'll have/want any friends ! I just wanna fulfill my purpose God set me w| I guess ...
Plus I don't want to break anymore hearts ..because I know I have ..& intentionally..as much as it hurts to admit ..


What is sooo great about this love/relationship hype ? What's so hard about being single ? Or UN-interested ..? #seriously


xoxoFrenchy

OMG! Shoes. o__O

SO ..within the past 2weeks, I've gotten 3 pairs of shoes .

Safe to say, this job is ruining my life by supporting my habit ..#Yipes . 

I SHOULD be saving for my move to Cali & for the rest of the semester & this whack garbage school #SAIC . ANYWAYSS ! The three pair of shoes I got areee ..

*black combat boots 

*black ORIGINAL Moon Boots

* Nude semi-booties ..? lol if that's what you wanna call em . (i'll post pics later ..forreal this time ! lol)

& I asked for some wedges for Christmas ..hopefully I get them b|c my momma was T-R-I-P-P-I-N' the other day -___- ..whatever, I`ll just buy em myself lol . #shesfunny . -___- sike ..

ANYWAYS . If there are 3 pair of shoes I believe are a MUST have for a more ..i guess dynamic wardrobe its ..

Combat/Workman Boot

These are studded, I don't personally own studded ones ..yet. But any pair are fine ! If you're really dope you'll go cop you some Doc Martens & be classic . I'll be grabbing a pair soon ..floral for the spring ..#chea. but I have a problem lol ..soo don't follow my example ! #AVOID taller than calf height boots, then you can't wear them in the spring really without looking like a poorly dressed art student . (i can talk because I AM an art student ! - soo dont chew me up!)

Black Wedge Booties

Wedges can be dressed up or down & are SUPERRR comfy for those of us that don't want to & don't wear heels out all the time, and a classic ..although they are pretty trendy right now. #nuffsaid

A pair of Strappy heels.

Not the ghetto skinny prostitute straps, they need to be substantially ...well thick .

Throw on a pair of black socks for the winter, colored socks for Spring & none for Summer .

Make your clothes SEASONAL ..don't always go buyin' a bunch of new stuff all the time you know ?

#ishouldntbetalking , but I'm revamping my wardrobe so I have a reason : ) ..kinda lol

All my shoes tend to have platforms ..because they are a MUST . I'm already 5'10 & skinny ...so they just make me like 6'3 & SUPER lanky ...but idc ! Who doesn't like to look long ? haha . anywhoo ..

I'm done rambling here ..lol HOPEFULLY you guys found some help in this .

xoxoFrenchy

followmeee: @frenchyren

I'm Baaaa-aackkk ! >:)

Neighbors, Friends, Countrymen, Lend me your eyes ..

Yes Yes, I totes quoted Shakespear ^__^ NOW ..this blog-post I GUESS is semi-serious .

RECENTLY, I've been kinda troubled with this notion that I'm not a "nice" person . The girls at my job are convinced of it, & it makes me sad that they feel that way ..even though it's kinda true . I mean I'm not mean or anything don't get me wrong ! I'm just not "nice" . I'm real, I'm blunt, & I'm straightforward . Not to come out w| the "all my life I been trampled on"-sob story . YET I was nice for a LONG time & people just didn't appreciate it ..now when I'm like nice nice, it makes me SO uncomfortable ..& when people try to figure me out . 

I wish it was possible to exist in this world alone & just be able to be 100% independent ..b|c that's the kind of person I've become ...but I can't ..so I gotta change . It's a hard process man ..I really try ..& I feel so vulnerable just saying nice things, in a nice way . I always say nice things like "Aye, bro I got it ..don't worry about it" instead of, "Hey, why don't you let me help you with that" ...nice . I can be SO manish in the way I do things sometimes ..as much of a DRAMAqueen that I am ..#BLAHHHHHH ..it sucks .

I'm just not the flambuoyantly nice type ..I do things kinda lowkey ..I'm a very chill person . I don't like bein all up in ur face ...idk . Maybe I don't even know what kinda person I am ..I'm pretty sure all I'm doing now is existing ..not living & thats gotta change . I just need a little help you know ? Someone please ...#helpme .

Holy Freakin CRAP !

Omfggg !!!! 

!. Guys ...I need to slit my wrist ..vertically . 

I'm SOOOOOO behind in freakin' updating . These Final projects are TAKING OVER MY LIFE !! #gahh . #staleface. 

I'm soo super sorry; as of Friday . I PROMISE I will post ALL the freakin' time 

No wonder not many people are following my blog lmfao . How EMBARASSING .

I'll keep you updatedd & post my projects so u can tell me abt it ^__^

XoxoFrenchyy

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Winter Fash-Uhnn ♥

I figuredd since I've done lets say ..NO posts fashion related ..I'd start with a VITAL one .
PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT -
Winter Fashion Does NOT Consist of :
A. Northface Fleece
B. Leggings
C. UGG Boots

 

THIS IS NOT STYLE .

GIVE IT UP, I CAN DRESS YOU BETTER WITH $15 AND A THRIFT STORE.

This years Winter's fashion scene is SOOOO widespread you can fit all kinds of things into it . From minimalist to complete, & utter garish..-ness. LAYERING- key word this winter ! Layers upon layers of clothes. Knitwear and thermals, fur accents & leggings just a few of SOOOO many trends this season . One thing you deff can't forget is to buy a fabulous holiday dress ! I recommend H&M they have awesome dresses, SOME for like ..50% off its dope af . Go shopping in your mom/grandma/dad/brother/grandpa's closets ! I'm sure you`ll find awesome things !

Here's a few inspiration ideas ^__^

Now ! For me ...i have a few of my favoriteee trends, you may not like them but ..WHATEVS, its my blog anywho lol ..i hope you do ! ^__^

Thermals Thermals Thermals ! Especially Long Johns as Pants ! They're the new legging of the season ! I saw this picture of this chick in long johns & I fell in love with her ..not her pants, HER . She's so dope for that & I've officially been inspired ! I gotta find some1 that'll deal w| my camera whoreish ways so I can get photos of ME for you guys ^__^ lol . #imnohypocrite ..I think my style is pretty decent . ANYWAYS .

I'm also in love with FURRRR!*gucci mane voice* ..it just gives whatever your outfit is, a warm touch ^__^ #burr! Its superr stylish to have SMALL fur pieces though, don't go get minked out ! Especially not if you can't afford it, I'm all for a nice fur coat ! I just dont have the ca$h for one ..WOMP -___- .

Be like Yeezy & Amber Rose ! BUT it's good to try a fur hat, bag, scarf or even a foxtail for your purse or something ! So far I have a all fur trapper hat, a rabbit fur sac bag thingy(I have yet to find one ]: WOMPPP- if you got the hookup let a sista know ! hehe)

INFINITY SCARVESS ! AHHHHh !

I love them ! They're the scarves that are kind of ...ovular ..if that's even a word ha . You can wear them SOO many cute ways & that chunky knit makes anyone look cute ! On top of that anyone can make an infinity scarf . Maybe I'll do a few DIY's on this chizz ..cause Lord knows I hate paying $$ to do something myself ..but better : )

Winter Styling Tips-Make your summer Wardrobe work for you !:

-Layer Sweaters w| Maxi Dresses & cool boots !

 A cropped sweater gives your summery dress a super cool grundge lolita type of look .

-Lace It Up !

Wear your summer tanks & bandeaus underneath a neutral color lace top/vest/jacket

-Sock-it To-Me !

Got cool oxfords ? Platform open toe shoes ? Shorts ? Dresses ?

Make it seasonal w| a pair of super-dope socks ! Bright, lacy anklets or knit,sheer knee/thigh-highs !

-Leggings Galoree !

Make your leggings a subtly fabulous part of your outfit by wearing them underneath your favorite sweater, flannel, ripped jeans, dresses, shorts or whatever ! Leggings are super hot this season sooo MAKE IT WORK GIRL !

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That's enough for noww . Just a few things to run by you ! ^__^

Be Cute AND Warm this Winter; I know I will !

Because Chicago is #tearingmeup .

XoxoFrenchyy

(followme - @frenchyren)

..To Fly ♥

Alright ! So ! There's this song on Pink Friday ..it's called 'Fly' . If you don't know it, familiarize yourself with it IMMEDIATELY . (play at the bottom of this post!)

I think when you're destined for greater things, you have more problems with things that normal people find easy, or come easier to other people. Such as relationships, not just bf/gf but friendships; because I suck at those & I'm always single and only have like one REAL friend . Isn't that how most celebs are ? Single & like ..1 childhood friend ? I'm not cocky or  conceited or self-absorbed or into self-glorification, so don't even go there in your thinking. On the other hand though ..I DO believe that I'm not cut out to live a normal lifestyle, I'm built to withstand things most people couldn't even imagine going through or having the courage to attempt.

For those who DON'T know me ..I'm getting into modeling more heavily then I have in the past and a LOT of opportunities present themselves to me and a lot of people support and are interested in me & that makes me feel good . And yettt ..there are still people who try to box me in, and as much heartache I've been through, I still can't get enough of pursuing what I want with a beyond tenacious spirit ..makes me feel pretty effing good . ^__^ .  So when I say I'm going to meet whomever, I mean that ...#notimeforgames. And because I can't seem to find my place in "regular society", I'll find my place in a different one ..a smaller one ..where I can have a bigger impact . Funny how that works huh ?

Scarcity depicts Value . The more rare it is, the more it's worth . Remember that . Anywhooo ..lol while I'm pouring out my thoughts, I'm going to stop before I make you people sick of me . I just like to inspire people to think about what there place is ..and if it's not w| the "normies" , don't sweat it ..you`ll fall right into place sooner or later .

Better Late than Never right ?

XoxoFrenchy

F#@^ the Money$$

You know ..I realized ..I start like every blog post with "Sooo" lol; I NEED TO EXPAND MY VOCABULARY ]: wompp ! ANYWAYS ...

I was browsing some blogs for new music & I found this song & Fell in LOVE with it ..Even though I don't really like B.o.B. like that ..he's kinda weak lowkey ..
M o V I N g  On ...

It seems like it may be a little vain BUT I see it differently ..Take a listen, form your own opinion and THEN read mine ! Lol .

I kinda see this song asssss ..like you get the REAL down (down-to-earth) people in any lime-lighted industry, that go from underground/under the radar to the spotlight & they realize that it may not/isn't what they wanted. So you do what you gotta do to make your as much $$ as you can so you can go back to being lowkey where your craft is appreciated as the art form that it is . But that's just me ... I semi-disagree with this logic ..but that's because I love attention & I'm not famous ..yet haha . Seriously though ..listen a couple times, feel it a lil bit . You'll see I'm puttin' you on to some HOTT chizz haha .

Sexiest Males - My Musical Loves .

Sooo ...I've spent & spend a LOT of time listening to/downloading/searching for new music & some old music that I was too young to legitimately appreciate or be put on to . I have three MEGA crushes though & yes ...It's pathetic to have celeb crushes, but to be honest I don't have time for the real thing . 

I think I understand why a lot of celebs are single or with non-celebs lol --when you're doin ya thing, you fall in love w| that & relationships don't seem to matter .

ANYWHOOO .. My crushes areee #drumrollplease .

Scotty Mescudi

 Aubrey "Drake" Graham

 Jermaine Cole

Yessss ! Kid Cudi, Drake & J. Cole ..I'm in love w| them . Cudi especially ...he speaks to my soul yo . I feel like ..he knows me personally ..or that we're cut from the exact same cloth . Drake ..when he sings, WOOOOO my heart sings & I lovee his speaking voice too ...If he would just talk to me all day, I could just ..GAHHHH idek ! haha . J. Cole ...he's so hood ..but in a sexy non-ghetto kinda way, I feel like he's got that inner thug thats not ratchet af . Cause Lord knows ..I am an oreo & I can NOT go for the "thug" types haha . I'd smoke w| him ...if I ever thought of smoking haha .

ANYWHOOOO <3 . They have my heart until I meet them; until then ..I'm taken by 3 men that don't know I exist hahaha . Self-Proclaimed nerd strikes again ! XD Love you guyss <3

XoxoFrenchy

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-Of course I had to advertise myself ^__^ haha

xoxoFrenchyy

Turkey Dayyyy !

AHH ! I know ..i am SO SO late & For some plp Thanksgiving might already be over .! (srryyy!) BUT it is 11:03pm & I should be sleep b|c I have to wake up @ 6am to work w| CRAZY SHOPPERS . #YIPES !

I went to 3 Houses today & threw DOWN! Buttttt forgot to take pics of my plates except the very last piece of cake I had ! Goodnesss . I can feel the 549lbs sitting on my body already ! o__O

& O-M-G !!This morning ! You wont believe what I did ..#drumrollpls . I ...made ...CUPCAKES !

If you dunno me ..then you should know ..i hate cooking ..hate the kitchen.. hate ingredients, heck I barely even eat ! Soooo I made 31 cupcakes & a heart shaped cake todayy : D lookyyy !

& of coursee I had to have one ^___^

Super Cute Right x___x ! (sorry the heart cake isnt frosted yet so no pics-___-) Hehe ..WELP ! I'm off to beddy by !

Happy Turkey Day Readersss ! Be grateful everyday not just annually !

Cause thats bogus -____- 

xoxoFrenchy

P.s ...My mom says I'm anorexic because of my well ..lack of eating habits ..but in denial . & Lowkey ..she might actually be right ..Keep me in your prayers guys ! <3*

What's Her Name ? -- Ri-ah-na !

SO . As readers of my blog I should probably warn you of my unnatural obsession w|  Robyn "Rihanna" Fenty . I am like ...in love with this woman ! But not for your typical "hype" reasons . To make a long story short, Rihanna is like the manifestation of how I saw myself being at her age, when I was like ..12. Sooo there will be a PLETHORA of posts with or in regards to this woman &  HOP OFF I AM NOT A SUPERFICIAL HYPE !!! (atleast i dont think i am XD)

Although she has "Inspired" a few of my recent haircuts haha ..but NOT my recent decision to get a weave ! Its too cold in Chicago to be cute w| Short hair -___- . AnnyywhooOoOooo ! These are a few of my recent faves from her . She is MAGNIFICENT isn't she ?!

 

Sooo I made this deal with myself that, If *coughWHEN* I get into the fashion program at my school,

I'm going to design a 10 piece collection for her, mail them to her & pour my heart out abt how BADLY I would like for her to be my like muse . ^__^

That's until I find an one I can be stingy with x__x haha !

P.s...I know I'm a nerd, but it's cool. Everyone loves nerds these days <3

ANYWHOOO . Later lovess

XoxoFrenchyy

The Bleeh-Blah's of 4:25AM

Supriseee ! Guess who's up ? ME hoe ! -____- ..its early/late whatevs . I just checked my Facebook for my friend's link to her blog andddd I can NOT believe that she's scared for the world to like SEE it . Firstly #shoutout to myself for personally creating that orgasmic banner XD haha . & Pre-Firstly, I never would've thought or known wtf was going thru this girl's head without reading it or that those things go on in her head !

THIS IS WHY THE WORLD NEEDS BLOGS !

Anywhoo ..(Insert Friend's Name Here) your blog is Dope & I am dedicating this random & completely unorthodox blog post to you becauseee yea ; ur ish is awesome : D . Love Ya' Girl ! & Keep Postinggg Too <3

-xoxoFrenchyy(Ren)

Dear Readersss , Oh! Yea !...btw: Here are 2 Banner Designs I've donee . Pretty Simple BUT if you want one . #HITMEUPPP !

Fashion Dept Display

Sooo . Um recently in my Intro Fashion class we did this "Deconstruction" Project . So what we did was take an old suit; rip it up & make it into something Fabulous ! THENNNN we found out there was a competition for each class & tht the winning dresses would be put in the display case . Guess who was one of the lucky 12 ? ME !! OMG RIGHT ! My dress is rather ..skimpy looking compared to the rest AND you can't really see the detailing w| the crappy camera I used so i`ll post Detailed pics later . BUT here's the bare bones of this AMAZINGLY wonderful Opportunity !

Ahhh ! You see my name ?! (Lauren Willis). I am SOO Super convinced that this is DEF what I am made to do . ^_^

Hi I'm Frenchy .

Hi, my name is Lauren Willis, aka Ren or FRENCHY, which is what I prefer. I'm currently in Art school for fashion & pursuing my modeling career all at the same time. My goal is to become a Model, Designer, Fashion Icon & DECENT Role Model for all the "individuals" out there. I am from & currently residing in the G R E A T city of CHICAGO . Yes yes HATE ON IT ^__^ haha j/k. Anywhoo.. I made this blog like 2 months ago, BUT school has been CONSUMING MY LIFE, sooo I've only posted like twice haha . BUT the purpose of this blog is really just to share my ideals/ideas, projects, inspirations, aspirations, model successes & failures along with following my design school career : D lol . Oh yea ! & Also to share all of the odds & ends of my like ..day to day life; as boring as it may be, I AM GOING TO SHARE IT WITH YOU .